Useless

Useless... Any one ever felt it? I'm feeling it every fucking day! I just can't stand it anymore!!! Why? I don't know, but in truth I do know why. It's because I am useless! I have no job, no money( my own money), no dreams not any more. I got nothing and only my pain, suffering and my chaotic thoughts left. I need something need a chance in this damn chaos! Why don't the little fairy just swing her wand and all be all right and I can finally have peace and all that I want! Screw this damn World screw all you people in it! I had enough! dam it!!!

Emptyness

What is happening to me???? I am empty,alone with no job, no future, no perspectives.Who am I? Why??? Why always the others get what they want and I stay with the shit of the world? Why me??? Am I not worthy enough??? Why can you answer me WHY???? WHY THE FUCK I AM ALWAYS THE FUCKED UP IN THIS DAMN LIFE?????? Please some one please help me, help me because I am dieing slowly... I need a way out I need a way out... here the darkness comes again please save me!!!

AMV

So here is my new video I hope some one like it, because I did xD...

Night

And so in the darkest night, here I stand in front of my computer, writing down the same old things. And yet no one calls, no one stands, no one cares...Why? Why am I alone? Why am I here? What do I need, what do I get? I can't find the meaning any more I can't stand it! I want to get my grips on the life and to kill it in a moment. I want every thing to end! I need it! I tried, oh I tried, but NO the damn world wont except me! And here I am again alone writing to no one, here I stand alone in my room, getting ready to sleep and escape this damn world to get to the dream world. I want to end, why, why YOU don't letting me GO!!!??? I want to go home I want to go HOME!

Indigo

Well now hello world! Hello again, I am alone as always and I don't really care. It's strange isn't it? Well lets move on now I want to speak about the Indigo children. This children are one of our future, they are the artists, scientists and all kind of vundrerkinds. But as always there is one big fucking BUT! The Indigo have its own dark side, it's like the Force from Star Wars, the once from the light side are happy, successful and with a lot of luck. The dark side is the real trеath for those new age people, because it's full of darkness,sadness,depression and suicidal thoughts. The Parents of those kids must find an expert, or their kids will never be happy or successful. Why I am saying about that, well I found the wast few days that I myself am Indigo, but for some reason I joined the Dark side, I am trying to find the light, but some how it just didn't work. My chieldhood was happy, but with it's own dark sides. I am Indigo and I will change the things no matter how hard it would be I will make it!!!!

In the past few days I didn't get up from my PC, because I was playing Elder Scrolls IV Oblivion. In the game I get few mods one of them was about Viconia De Vir, companion mod and the Underdark Saga, well I will say one thing: for the moment I am 100% addicted to Oblivion, because it's firs person RPG and it's well WoW offline with thousands of quests, items and creatures if you get bored, just go and download few mods or DLCs and you will never be bored again.
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The Dead Souls

Well hello again, I forgot to post for so much time, but here am I again.
So this time my article tells you every thing! The People called Dead Souls, there was a book for them but I don't remember the author. So the dead souls people, are empty shells some of them are emotionless. No they are not Emos they are quite the opposite they cant feel any thing, like a wall when you are hurt and want to talk to some one the Dead Souls cant help you, trust me. Well they are just empty in side saw so much things and didn't care about any thing.If they saw a car hitting some one will they help, will they cry, will they shed a blink of an eye or they will just get on their way careless, empty and alone in this big world. Probably I again writing this just for me and the 1 or 2 people checking my site from skype or somewhere. Why am I writing this rolls, well because...... ummm because I am a DEAD SOUL as well... The only thing I do is to hurt people and friends, I could have a girl, but I hurt her and left her... Why? Because I am dead soul because I don't care, it's just me on this damn world, alone as always..............