Asylum

This bloody world, needs its new ways, the people need to open to the new, to the things that are in motion. 2012 is the year of the self awarness, htats the year all starts again. At this point our world is one big Asylum full of crazyness on the streets, homes, minds and every thing. Am I so crazzed that I can see it, see the wrong see the darkness...
Yes I am in this damn dark place again, and this time I am alone, I don't need any one... I can only hurt and destroy, I am sorry for all of you, I am sorry for my coldness and my soulesness...

Why?

So simple isn't it? Just one question, so simple and yet so hard to explain. WHY? WHY I AM ALIVE?WHY I AM HUNGRY? WHY DO I EXIST?WHY?WHY?WHY????????????????????????? It's hard, darkness have covered me again, the emptyness in me is back....

Fate

It is strange how our world works, some where in the darkness I am in, a moon light came to me, and so she inlighten me show me the new way, the only way. And YES finally I am in LOVE. Damn it, damn them all, I don't care for any one else any fucking more, just her, only her!!! Love you Amaranth! I will be here!

What is it?

Where am I? Who am I? What is wrong with me? What is it?

Amaranth just the name is enought

Kansas - Dust In The Wind

Where am I?

Did you ever woke up and ask your self- "Where am I?", recentlly I started to ask myself every morning. I started to feel myself like Im in the Matrix, and my dreams are more real then the real "world". This week was hard for me. From the long days in my cousins apartment to the 3 day party in my home town. Yesterday I had a dream, a real dream that I considered to be "real". My head and my perception are going crazzy, I don't know who am I any more. I feel like all my life is one big Lie and staging. Im here and I am alone in one forgoten shore at the end of the world. Come with me and join my partty come and see the end with my eyes... No job, no money, no happyness, no love, with nothing except myself... Unhappily for ever after...