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Който чел, чел толкова, скоро ще започвам втора, но кога ще е готова ми нз.

Asylum

This bloody world, needs its new ways, the people need to open to the new, to the things that are in motion. 2012 is the year of the self awarness, htats the year all starts again. At this point our world is one big Asylum full of crazyness on the streets, homes, minds and every thing. Am I so crazzed that I can see it, see the wrong see the darkness...
Yes I am in this damn dark place again, and this time I am alone, I don't need any one... I can only hurt and destroy, I am sorry for all of you, I am sorry for my coldness and my soulesness...

Why?

So simple isn't it? Just one question, so simple and yet so hard to explain. WHY? WHY I AM ALIVE?WHY I AM HUNGRY? WHY DO I EXIST?WHY?WHY?WHY????????????????????????? It's hard, darkness have covered me again, the emptyness in me is back....

Fate

It is strange how our world works, some where in the darkness I am in, a moon light came to me, and so she inlighten me show me the new way, the only way. And YES finally I am in LOVE. Damn it, damn them all, I don't care for any one else any fucking more, just her, only her!!! Love you Amaranth! I will be here!

What is it?

Where am I? Who am I? What is wrong with me? What is it?

Amaranth just the name is enought

Kansas - Dust In The Wind

Where am I?

Did you ever woke up and ask your self- "Where am I?", recentlly I started to ask myself every morning. I started to feel myself like Im in the Matrix, and my dreams are more real then the real "world". This week was hard for me. From the long days in my cousins apartment to the 3 day party in my home town. Yesterday I had a dream, a real dream that I considered to be "real". My head and my perception are going crazzy, I don't know who am I any more. I feel like all my life is one big Lie and staging. Im here and I am alone in one forgoten shore at the end of the world. Come with me and join my partty come and see the end with my eyes... No job, no money, no happyness, no love, with nothing except myself... Unhappily for ever after...

Hello

OK, so Hi people! I just saw that my blog was visited by a lot of Americans( or any other) Soooo What I wanted to say is- Hi to all! I am pleased that there are some people reading my stuff. I may have some mistakes here and there, so excuse me for it, but I'm not American or Englishman, so sorry. Well my story is in my blog, I had really hard days in the past and i still have one now, but it seems that I get a mask on my face and I just don't show my true self and my true situation. I really don't care about it. As once I heared or I made it up(I truely don't know) "Live while you can!", and I'm doing it, I still live with my perents(thank the maker for them!) and I'm not some homeless guy, I want to leave and start alone, but for the moment I can't start. I have no founds and nothing at all, except for my self, it seems that I just complaining here and I can't find the meaning of my life, but that day is comming and I hope I will know what to do. So people known and unknown hello from me from the guy calling him self Nem0 the captain of Nautilus, the one and only. I want to thank you that you are reading my bullshits and my sadness(and NO I'm not EMO, I am just a sad person who's trying to find his place in the world). I am glad that there are some one who is reading my posts and some one that find me funny or sad or some thing... Don't see low on me, don't try to cheer me up! You can't I am here for now and I am waiting for the End to come, so this is for you!

The Silence is a blessing

The Silence is a blessing...

My life sucks!

Well thats it my damn life sucks! It seems that "He" made me without luck, so anything I start gets a failuar. Damn truth! I am just sick to all of this! Call me EMO if you want I don't care(eaven I am not). My damn dream is now to get to an Japanese beach and just die in the afternoon... Scrull all you damn people and scrull me!